why do i exist lyrics

Pale lips Bags under my eyes Alone after midnight Too numb to cry No friends At least I can pretend That everyone loves me Expect that's a lie What happens when I die Will people take their time Shedding their tears Or did I waste all my years What happens if I stay No promise I'll be okay Cause life can get hard And it tears me apart Bruises Wounds behind my back From people who stabbed me With hate in their eyes I'm over Because I'm a loner My pain is my closure Why do I exist?