I Shrunk Myself For Love lyrics

I noticed the first time I went quiet It just became easier Than explaining why I was hurting When you weren't listening I remember sitting on the edge of the bed Watching you get dressed like I wasn't there You used to kiss me before you left Now you just grab your keys and air I sent you a long text at 11:47 Deleted half of it before you could read Tried not to sound like I needed you Even though you were all I need You stopped asking how my day went So I stopped having anything to say It's crazy how you can live with someone And still feel miles away I started telling people we're okay With a smile that didn't reach my face 'Cause I didn't want to explain Why loving you felt like a lonely place I kept saying it's just a phase While slowly losing who I was And every time I chose peace I was choosing less of me I shrunk myself for love Till I barely took up space beside you Made my voice softer so you wouldn't get tired of me I learned how to need you quietly Learned how to cry where you couldn't see And I called it patience but it was breaking me I gave you a woman who would stay through anything And you gave me a silence that slowly killed everything Now I'm sitting with the truth That I lost myself trying not to lose you I remember crying in the bathroom While you were laughing on your phone I turned the tap on just to hide it 'Cause I got used to hurting alone You stopped reaching for my hand in public Like loving me became too much to show And I started questioning everything About a love I used to know I bought things I thought would fix it Little changes here and there But no matter how much I adjusted You were never really there I stopped telling my friends the truth 'Cause I was tired of hearing you deserve more But I was still hoping you'd become The man you were before I kept holding onto memories Like they were promises you'd keep But you were already gone I was just the last to see I shrunk myself for love So my reflection didn't feel like me I gave you every part of my heart While you gave me uncertainty I made excuses for your absence Turned your absence into grace And every time you pulled away I found a way to stay I gave you a woman who would never give up But you made me feel like loving you was always too much And now I'm left here healing From a love that felt so real but never really was Outro You didn't lose me overnight You lost me in every moment I felt alone next to you In every tear I had to hide In every time I begged without words And every piece of myself I had to give up Just to keep you And I stayed, God I stayed longer than I should've Because I thought love meant not giving up on you But I was giving up on me I shrunk myself for love But I won't disappear again I won't beg for attention or compete with your distance I was never too much, I was just too real For someone who didn't know how to love deeply And one day you'll remember me In the way nobody else loves you But by then I'll be whole again I'll be me again The woman I lost trying to keep you I'm still healing from loving you More than I ever loved myself