Vertigo of Freedom lyrics

I stop at the edge, this isn't a bridge, it's a void A thousand doors open, and none of them lead anywhere Every choice I put off is already a choice made My body freezes, but the clock won't wait It's not fear of falling, it's fear of power To face the abyss and know that I can choose No one comes to hold my hand on the ledge The vertigo isn't the fall it's seeing that I could be anything bad It's the anguish of everything I'm not yet It's the ground disappearing when I realize I'm going There's no rope, no safety net, no saint on duty Just the leap and the silence of my decision Vertigo of freedom the void that calls to me Vertigo of freedom every choice becomes a flame It's not the abyss that scares me It's knowing that I can jump Everyone wants an answer, I just carry the question A torn map, a silent compass Faking certainty is the easiest way to run away But the ground keeps disappearing beneath me They taught me that freedom is a celebration, it's relief No one told me it weighs like a building On my chest, on my choice, on what I'll become The more I can do anything, the more I'm afraid to walk It's the anguish of everything I'm not yet It's the ground that vanishes when I realize I'm leaving There's no rope, no safety net, no guardian angel on duty Just the leap and the silence of my decision Vertigo of freedom the void that calls to me Vertigo of freedom every choice turns into a flame It's not the abyss that scares me It's knowing that I can jump I, can, do, anything And that's, what, paralyzes, me No one, comes, to choose, for me The leap is mine If I don't jump, someone else will jump for me And call it destiny, fate, the end I'd rather feel the vertigo than live on my knees I'd rather face the void than pretend I've already made the right choice Dizziness of freedom the void that calls to me Dizziness of freedom every choice turns into a flame It's not the abyss that scares me It's knowing that I can jump I choose, even without ground beneath me