Nausea (English Version) lyrics

My body wakes up heavy It's not tiredness It's weight It's the whole world on top of me Demanding I back down Hands that lift everything But can't hold their own child Words stuck in my throat Swallowed along with the trash It's not sadness Sadness has an end This is existing Without knowing why I am here Thrown into this world That didn't ask me If I wanted to arrive I just arrived I just arrived Nausea The name I gave to this pain Nausea Of existing without being the author They gave me a life That I didn't ask for Nausea Of being free And not having left here I pretend to my son That everything's settled Inside, I'm rubble I'm November I'm forgotten Money doesn't cover it Dignity vanishes And the devil laughs While I swallow my hunger No need to tempt me I'm already selling myself for crumbs I'm already bowing before the war I'm already losing before the battle But the clarity that remains Is a knife that never tires I no longer believe In God In man In hope Nausea The name I gave to this pain Nausea Of existing without being the author They gave me a life That I didn't ask for Nausea Of being free And not having left here I no longer ask for an explanation I no longer wait for salvation I've swallowed so many promises That my stomach is a prison The gazes of others condemn me Without judgment Without a court I exist And that is my punishment I exist And that alone is fatal I exist and it hurts I exist and it hurts I exist And the world knows And the world does nothing I exist I exist