How Many Times 歌词

I've had enough, and I'm feeling a little beat. I don't know what the future holds for me. But I tell myself I don't give a damn 'Cause my life is in pieces and I forgot who I am. I can't lose myself, kill my pride. For the things I took for granted at my side But they still expect me to pay the cost. Can't keep blaming myself for the love that I've lost. How many times will I have to go Through this vicious circle, again and again? How many times before I know This road will lead to the same bitter pain? The sweetness of lies and the sourness of the truth, Cruel betrayals and love's burning shame, And/ how many times, from beginning to end, Will I have to play these silly games? Because I'm so frail, They say I'm/ destined for hell Why then am I so blind Searching for heaven heaven divine? Did love's redemption redemption fail? What's the source source of my strife? What's the price for my life? The wrong, the right, a penny, or fortune? But for me, the lines are blurred For pain is my portion.