If my heart could speak lyrics

I've been holding onto love Like it's slipping through my hands You don't see the way I break Whenever you don't understand I've been strong for everybody But for you I fall apart 'Cause you're the only one I let That close into my heart Late nights, quiet cries Trying not to call your phone Wondering if you'd even care To know I'm feeling all alone Your name feels heavy on my tongue But I still whisper it 'Cause loving you is something That my soul can't quit And I hate that you don't hear me When I'm screaming silently But you're the only one I dream of Even when it's killing me If my heart could speak It'd tell you how it breaks before it beats How every moment with you cuts me deep But I still choose you even when it hurts to breathe If my heart could speak It'd beg you not to walk away from me I'm trying but you're all I ever need Baby, if my heart could speak I've been trying to pretend That I don't feel you slipping out But every time you pull away My hope gets smaller, filled with doubt I just want to love you right But I keep losing pieces too Trying to hold myself together While I'm holding onto you I give you all the softness That nobody ever gave to me But you don't see the woman breaking Right behind the loyalty If loving you is losing me Then why do I still stay Maybe 'cause your love's the only place I've ever felt okay And I hate that I still need you When you barely notice me But my heart keeps calling for you Even in my hardest weeks If my heart could speak It'd tell you how it breaks before it beats How every moment with you cuts me deep But I still choose you even when it hurts to breathe If my heart could speak It'd beg you not to walk away from me I'm trying but you're all I ever need Baby, if my heart could speak Maybe I should let you go But I don't know how to love slow You're the only home I've known Even when it hurts my soul And if you heard the things I hide You'd know I'm losing sleep at night Praying you don't change your mind Praying you don't say goodbye If my heart could speak It'd tell you how it breaks before it beats How every moment with you cuts me deep But I still choose you even when it hurts to breathe If my heart could speak It'd beg you not to walk away from me I'm trying but you're all I ever need Baby, if my heart could speak