Promise lyrics

Y'know that i want your loving But my logic tells me that it aint never gonna happen And then my defense'd say i did't want it anyway But you know sometimes i'm a lier Could you ever want me to love you Could you ever want me to care Disregard my nervousness Please ignore my vacant stares Cause just what i've been thru Is nothing like where i'm going to Give me some sign to persue A promise And your unhappy This is only a guess Do you know what it's like to hate When it's way down deep inside Oh god i hate what's been done to my life I could rule the pain I could rule the night Or would i ruin my salvation Ruin my mind rules your pains Rulers of the night Ruin your salvation Ruin yor mind