Bottom Of a Bottle lyrics

I've been scared and lonely I've asked myself is something wrong with you my girlfriend told me I need some time alone to deal with issues But something makes me carry on It's difficult to undestand Why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle You always call me And ask me how I make it through the day I'm always fallin' I guess it's just God's way of making me pay But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly (refrão) When I, I wonder why I try And I, I wonder why I bother And I, I wonder why I cry Why I, I go through all this trouble