Unwanted Lifestyle lyrics

I'm alive, but I'm actually dyin' Loud, but I'm actually quiet Hurt, but I'm tryna stay solid Prayin' as I speed in this car Shinin', but it's actually dark My headlights off as I'm drivin' Some people'd kill for this lifestyle that I don't wanna live no more, mm I didn't even cry when Lil E died, I'm thinkin' that my tears are gone Heaven-sent, I speed through the forest and I don't hit a tree, uh Flyer than a hornet, but I'm real as I can be, yeah You can stay here or leave, yeah, I ain't talkin' Tylenol More water than Niagara Falls, sold codeine out of mama house When they turn the lights off, all a sudden I'm heatin' now Got rich and now I'm at my dangerous Window, I be hangin' out, I love how that chopper sound Sometimes I forget I'm famous All a sudden she hit me back, think she was dodgin' me The drop-off would be quicker, but we plan on parkin' these, ayy Saint Laurent, I'm drippin', bitch, don't even talk to me Shouldn't have to pay for your love, but I was told nothin' was free How you wanna be me and I don't wanna be me? Remember we was hustlin' backwards Now I need six figures for my album And I count that money with a passion Try to hide that struggle with the fashion And my jewelry rose gold like Jalen Think I'm at peace long as I'm dyin' faded My straitjacket Moncler, I'm goin' crazy