HAPPY FEELS LIKE lyrics

After all of this time After every goodbye I just wanna know what— I find myself in this place again I don't know what to call it, but it ain't depressed I don't know if I'm here or I'm dead Buried with the things I regret Talking to the wall like a friend And half the time, I'm dealing with a feeling that I can't define Lookin' in my past for a sign That something's gonna feel like it did But nothin' ever feels like it did, so I take a pill everyday Try not to think about it Wish all my problems away Try not to think about it But I don't think I can change When all I think about is what I used to feel like Maybe I should realize After all of this time After every goodbye I just wanna know what happy feels like 'Cause I've been wasting my time Always chasin' a high I just wanna know what happy feels like I thought that money and trust could buy security Two things that only enable the thing that's hurting me Two things that only enable the insecurities And that's the only thing I feel, so, I still Take a pill everyday Try not to think about it Wish all my problems away Try not to think about it But I don't think I can change When all I think about is what I used to feel like I just wanna feel right After all of this time After every goodbye I just wanna know what happy feels like 'Cause I've been wasting my time Always chasing a high I just wanna know what happy feels like I tell myself: It's okay (try not to think about it) Say: "I can live with the pain" (try not to think about it) Push everybody away (when all I think about is) What I used to feel like Feels like I'm goin' insane (try not to think about it) I'm even sick when I'm safe (try not to think about it) So, what the fuck do I say? (When all I think about is) What happened to my life? What happened to my life? How can I get some peace and rest? I just wanna know— After all of this time (this time) After every goodbye (every goodbye) I just wanna know what (what ha—) happy feels like (what it feels like) 'Cause I've been wasting my time (wasting my time) Always chasin' a high (chasin' a high) I just wanna know what (what) happy feels like