It's like i'm not even here lyrics

I had it under control Everything I loved, everything that I owned And every time I think about it, I miss my home And every day I'm waiting for you to hit my phone And I wish you would know I'm so in love with you You're so in love with him I don't know what to do Girl, I'm a fool now It's getting hard to breathe Drugs all in my body I can't do nothing right Girl, I'm a loser And you knew I was here Making all these songs that somebody will hear 'Cause I'm not good at anything, I always fall short Almost wish that I was gifted in some way or some sort I'm so fucking depressed, I feel like I'm a waste And my mental fucked up, all I really wanted was space And don't talk to me 'cause I don't ever know what to say A cigarette for me, a lighter for my mistakes