Morbid Emotions lyrics

Is this the life that I search Is this the happines that I found ...No! Is this really the world of joy Do I still belong here ...I wonder! Living in never-ending night Ever seemed daylight Why I have to be here In this sorrow and depression With only friends ...razorblades ...have to kill myself We all are so fucking futile So you have join me ...Kill yourself Is this the Death that I reach Is this the expected and lovely end