Stranger lyrics

Old man was it worth it? Was it all that it seemed Did you ever find the carcass of your dreams? Oh you must know I was young The fear I had not yet outrun Though I was never meant to hurt you but I do I do It's got a hold of me and it keeps coming away And you're always looking at me from afar I can't change I'm a stranger to my nature Would you love me anyway If my head don't talk right Don't let me down old man Through the swollen eyes of your ritalin It's like a strangers standing over me Some kind of faceless beast that watches as I sleep Now there's a hard lump in my throat And all the best times that you've ever known Are all just fading off the back of my sanity Oh please I made you weep It's got a hold of me and it keeps coming away But you're always looking at me from afar I can't change I'm a stranger to my nature Would you love me anyway If my head don't talk right Don't let me down, old man I wanted rest I left the seeds of a memory And I wondered if I've come too far