Laughing Stock lyrics

I've accepted my defeat I've made my bed but I refuse to sleep I'm not happy, I never was I never will be I'll lower myself down While you all just stand around Why are you all so fucking happy? Let me be the punchline to your joke Manic, psychotic I think I've fucking lost it I can't be helped I'm in this hell And there's no fucking way That I'll be leaving Maybe I'll slit my wrists Just to feel something better than this