God, I'm Tired lyrics

But I'm still here I've been holding up the ceiling While the house begins to shake Smiling like a savior When my hands about to break I keep swallowing the thunder So the room can stay at peace But every storm I hope away Keeps burying me underneath And I sing like Orpheus To escape from this hell But every note comes back to me Like a prayer I couldn't tell If you were always listening Then you'd know how far I fell I turn my pain into a hymn So no one heard me yell God, I'm tired Of holding up the sky I keep saving everybody While I'm breaking deep inside If you hear me in the silence Send a sign that I'll survive God, I'm tired But I'm still alive Heaven cried above me But I wiped the tears alone Learned to be the fire When I never had a home I've been carrying the names Of every ghost I couldn't save And I still feel mercy When it feels just like a grave So I sing like Orpheus With the dead beneath my feet Trying to lead my soul back home Through the dark between the screams If God was really listening Then He heard what I became A boy who held the world too long And forgot his own name God, I'm tired Of holding up the sky I keep saving everybody While I'm breaking deep inside If you hear me in the silence Send a sign that I'll survive God, I'm tired But I'm still alive I don't wanna crown I don't wanna be brave I just wanna quiet a place Where I don't have to save Every heart, every home Every war I didn't start I have carried so much heaven That it tore my soul apart I sang through the fire I crawled through the rain I begged for an answer and called it fate I held up the sky Till it fell through my hands God, if you hear me Make me whole again God, I'm tired Of holding up the sky I keep saving everybody While I'm breaking deep inside If you hear me in the silence Send a sign that I'll survive God, I'm tired But I'm alive God, I'm tired But I'm still alive