A CROWN THAT WASN'T MINE lyrics

I gave my blood to a throne in the dark Carried her name like a flame in my heart I crossed every war Just to stand at her door But she never once called me home I more my kness through the marble and Stone Begged for a place in the Kingdom unknown I mistook every silence for something divine And called it love when left me behind So I burned and I built From the dust From the guilt Why do I feel like a traitor To a crown that wasn't mine? Why does heart ask forgiveness For surviving past goodbye? I was loyal to an empty throne Bled for a queen who let me go Now I'm afraid to look Toward another light Why do I feel like a traitor To a crown that wasn't mine? I raise these walls walls with my trembling hands Made a kingdom from what I couldn't understand Every brick was a battle I fought in my head Every tower was a night I should've been dead Now the banners are moving the war drums are still For the First time in years I can breathe if I will But I see other castles, I see other skies And I hate that it feels like a crime Was I bound by a vow that she never spoke out loud Why do I feel like a traitor To a crown that wasn't mine? Why does my heart ask forgiveness For surviving past goodbye? I was loyal to an empty throne Begged for a queen who let me go Now I'm afraid to look Toward another lie Why do I feel like a traitor To a crown that wasn't mine? I was never her king I was never her chosen Just a ghost at the gates of a kingdom left frozen And maybe moving on Doesn't make me cruel Maybe I was faithful to a beaultful wound If another hand should find me If another voice feels kind Would I still hear her name Like a setence in my mind? Why do I feel like a traitor To a crown that wasn't mine? Why does heart ask forgiveness For learning to be alive? I was loyal to an empty throne Bled for a queen who let me go But I built a world from Everything I survived I am not a traitor To a crown that wasn't mine I was not her king She was not my queen But I loved her Like the Kingdom was mine