pain for fun (feat. St. Vincent) 가사

There's always and always and always and always a need There's always and always and always and always a need When I see you smile, there's always that familiar feeling Somehow, I'm not the only one There's always and always and always and always a need There's always and always and always and always a need When you start to cry, I get that familiar feeling Somehow, I'm not the only one I'm so close to tears I'm biting, holding back I'm so happy, I could break down and cry Break down and cry So alone and so at home So alone and so at home I'm always and always and always and always in need I'm always and always and always and always in need When we lock our eyes, I hit my head on the ceiling I'm not the only one Always wanting something, yearning Feel indifferent, undeserving What am I, what am I now? And if I catch a glimpse of you while I hide Will you walk away from me and kill my pride? It's fine 'cause I feel this pain for fun I'm so close to tears I'm biting, holding back I'm so happy, I could break down and cry Break down and cry So alone and so at home So alone and so at home