This Isn't Happening 가사

And I have done this before And I've seen, and I've seen And I have been here before And I've seen, and I've seen This isn’t happening to me I gave, I tried but I’m far to weak The world in my mind is far to bleak I would probably die if I was somebody else If I swallowed my pride I would probably choke Mary is this what you want from me? I fear denial will come and torture me I've been erased and have no soul to sell Like a flame, like all the devils in hell Going backwards to be released Crumbling down into a wound that bleeds Destroying myself just to wake up But I can't wake up, I can't wake up