Worship What I Hate 가사

I keep looking at myself in the mirror Hoping it will change And I keep wishing for a brand-new body That I didn't have to blame I'm seeing every flaw, like a failure I'm using every cure, like a savior Like trying to build a church out of all my hurt When it really needs grace I gave all my time to nothing I focused on who I was Not who I'm becoming My fears they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Half a bottle of red Just before bed Is the only way I dream Before I really wake up The first thing I touch is a button on a screen I'm not guilty of leaving, not sticking around I'm guilty of staying and just checking out Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out On what's in front of me 'Cause I gave all my time to nothing I focused on who I was Not who I'm becoming My fears they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Why do the lies feel like the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty? 'Cause I gave so much time to nothing I focused on who I was Not who I'm becoming My fears they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate I didn't even realize (realize) I didn't even realize (realize) I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Didn't even realize, no Didn't even realize, didn't know Hm, yeah