Rest Among The Silt 가사

When it's dark and i'm alone i cry for peace but they won't go. And this is killing me but i can never let you know It's more than i can take, i sink - i drown - i cannot float And they keep pushing me the rope constricts my fucking throat again... You don't know what it's like if you did you'd never want me To be there - and if i made you understand, you'd have It an you'd be in this mess!!! Dragged down to rest among the silt, i cannot breathe it's ??? [the rest of the lyrics are too hard for me to interpret]