Counterproductive 가사

i light a fire just to put it out hoping that this accomplishment will satisfy requirements and numb this feeling of failure i fall down just to pick myself up succesfully i walk away it's been a productive day of losing my mind cause there are times when i don't feel very smart like my brain is a lot smaller than my heart the choices that i've made have rarely been the best just throw me in the corner with the rest maybe what i've failed to see is i've been concentrating on me instead of looking up to your open arms no, it doesn't seem that far