A Distance 가사

I've held my breath For twenty fucking years And hesitation brought me here It makes it harder to believe That I'll see you again I'm so scared of growing up I still act like I'm fifteen years old Too early to give up But too old to come home I found myself at a distance Empty highways and freezing train carriages I never thought I'd see myself like this Starving to death in this fucking city apartment Well, I'm twenty-one And so alone Well, this distance it gave me an option In the form of a shiny red apple In it's dark red skin I saw my reflection But I couldn't take it I sunk my teeth in I watch your tail lights fade over this stale town Your arm still waving from your windows I can barely make it out Barely make it out It'll be a cold and quiet month To spend alone in my head But when you finally return We'll be stronger for this Stronger for this I keep a tiny coloured print of you and I The one that we took At our friends engagement Sometimes I catch myself swimming in your smile And the crease over your eyes If I try I remember what they look like I keep a tiny coloured print of you and I Folded and creased like a bill In the paper compartment of my wallet A worthy home For something that comes and goes Oh, I now know why I've never felt at home I'm happy and healthy in my head But I've never felt so alone I spend my days counting the lines along the road They disappear right under me Like all the places that I've been Just thinking of you