Difficult 가사

My double vision is only amplifying everything he isn't Till I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition And I've been thinking if I move out this year I'll feel my parents slipping Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing Oh, I know spiralling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult To name this feeling would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving, but over what I never had So I've been speaking to my therapist, I call her every weekend I meant to tell you how I've hated how we left things when it fell through 'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to? Was it something that I said that coloured you blue? Oh, I know spiralling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult Difficult Difficult I've been drinking And staying up too late reliving bad decisions I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing Oh, I know spiralling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult Oh, I know spiralling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult