Rest Among The Silt 가사

When it's dark and I'm alone I cry for peace but they won't go. And this is killing me but I can never let you know It's more than I can take, I sink - I drown - I cannot float And they keep pushing me the rope constricts my fucking throat again... You don't know what it's like if you did you'd never want me To be there - And if I made you understand, you'd have it an you'd BE IN THIS MESS!!! Dragged down to rest among the silt, I cannot breathe it's ??? [The rest of the lyrics are too hard for me to interpret]