This Isn't What I Wanted At All 가사

When i'm in bed My regrets float overhead And whisper to me Tiny threats 'till my ears bleed The promises that i can't keep sing me to sleep When i awake the sun is fake And every day just feels the same Can't find the strength or find the words to say Strait to my own face Hey i see what i want and it's not what i want for me I know what i'm not and it's not what i want to be The mess i've made Will be the headstone of this grave Where i will stay Within the comfort that i crave From giving up and my heart finally stopping There i will lay and contemplate the changes that i should have made Internally regret is killing me But i'm already dead Hey i see what i want and it's not what i want for me I know what i'm not and it's not what i want to be I can't find no i can't find my place I can't find no i can't find my way