Can't Stand the Mourning 가사

I know death and taxes, they can't be out run I thought I'd have more time before the race begun Lost my father at twenty and I lost you last week How can I cope, I still haven't found me I've tried different religions and psychic hotlines Must be some way to hear your laugh one more time So I self-medicate to stay comfortably numb Knowing sooner or later, yeah, my day will come I need chemicals to sleep To see you in my dreams If I take enough maybe one day we'll spеak Oh, when I wake back up You won't be thеre to talk These photos and voicemails of you aren't enough Let me close my eyes 'Cause I can't stand the mourning Let me close my eyes 'Cause I can't stand the mourning All my friends and my therapist tell me stay strong But I haven't hit the gym in well, God knows how long All my smiles and my tattoos they're doing their part They're all putting in overtime to cover my scars Can't pretend that it's still the best day of my life When I tell you the truth, you say, it's all a lie So I'll pour one out and pour my heart into a drink 'Cause I'd rather pay for whiskey than a mid-level shrink I need chemicals to sleep So I'll see you in my dreams If I take enough maybe one day we'll speak Oh, when I wake back up You won't be there to talk These photos and voicemails of you aren't enough Let me close my eyes 'Cause I can't stand the mourning Let me close my eyes 'Cause I can't stand the mourning