Cynically Depressed 歌詞

I'm full of emptiness Relaxing with my stress Don't try to clean my mess I'm happier this way I live for my demise I love who I despise Feed me a soothing lie I'm happier that way When I die Will I feel darkness in the light Will I see beauty when I'm blind I don't have energy for rest Because I'm cynically depressed I never thought living clean Would keep me so lonely Cure my healthy disease I'm happier this way I'm climbing up your walls So you can watch me fall I'll never know it all I'm happier that way When I die Will I feel darkness in the light Will I see beauty when I'm blind I don't have energy for rest Because I'm cynically depressed My youth is dying of apathy and old age Under my skin is a child running away When I die Will I feel darkness in the light Will I see beauty when I'm blind I don't have energy for rest Because I'm cynically depressed