Comprehend the meaning of these tears 歌詞

Weakness lies on the other side of the gun I'm afraid of what comes there, My sanity is not ok, So I begun to question my faith Naked for my soul, I call you but there's no one, I feel nobody holds my hands I question what is home, Question what is God, Just to know what loneliness can make to a man The lights were out, There's no way out, You lied to me, You lied to me, You lied to me, I believe you can forgive him, did you for die for this? Did you die for me? Did you die for him? Did you die for whom?