Effortless 歌詞

I'm trying not to try so hard, Makes me wonder if it's really effortless, Or if I'm fooling myself? 'Cause if I have to put so much of me Into trying not to care, Where am I then? I'm lying. And do you see the way I walk away? I never really know what I should say, So it comes out wrong, If it comes out at all. So I straighten myself out, I bring me back down, "Don't be ridiculous, You are so wrong." But then I'm drifting, On a wave of thought. I get lost in the tides, And I can barely recognize myself. I don't mind, 'Cause do you see the way I walk away? I never really know what I should say, So it comes out wrong, If it comes out at all. So I try to act the way I would If I was someone that wasn't me. But you wipe that away, don't you? And I am falling down, I am tripping on words, I am out of my mind. You know, this is not like me. I'm not usually happy, I swear. And do you see the way I walk away? I never really know what I should say So it comes out wrong. And I turn my back And I don't look back. I am unafraid... ...but really I'm just kidding. I'm terrified, And I think I like it. And I don't care if I look ridiculous, Trying to be effortless.