​​if you only knew 歌詞

I've been tryin' so hard to survive Sometimes I think that I wanna die I feel so fucking guilty 'cause God I'm so lucky to live my life So I keep all the pain to myself Losin' faith but nobody can tell Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me So I pretend I'm fine If you only knew What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh If you only knew All the shit my brain is puttin' me through You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you If you only knew (Oh) I wish I was somebody else I'm constantly overwhelmed Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends It's a silent cry for help I wanna get better, I want you to know That I can't do this on my own If you only knew What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh If you only knew All the shit my brain is puttin' me through You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you If you only knew Take me out of this hell Oh, somebody help Take me out of this hell Oh, I'm not myself I wanna tell you What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry but I want to Oh, if you only knew