Songtext von Still Searching

I can't believe it's been a year Since I kissed my fears On the salty lips and said to them "I love you... Bye" (bye) Give way to the weight that's dragging and pulling through me now I've got something to say About the last twelve months I've lived I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you should know I take a pill every day To help me deal with life And, oh, my God! I've lost control I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at home Give way to the weight that's dragging and pulling through me now I've got something to say About the family that I've lost I hope my mother and father think that they raised a healthy boy Who needs the help of a shrink To even leave the house? And, oh, my God! I've lost control I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at home I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you should know I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger I just thought you I just thought you should know Give it away to the weight that's dragging and pulling through me now And now, and now, it's finding it's way and making it's way to let go I can't believe it's been a year Since I kissed my fears On the salty lips and said to them "I loved you" Just follow The pain and swallow Too hard to swallow them Down your throat Too hard to swallow (I have to swallow) The pain follows (the pain, it follows) And this is what I feel Down your throat My best fried is a man With a lab coat, entering I hold my shaking hand And it gives me medicine I hope this makes me feel at home But they slowly steal my soul I tell him I still feel alone "Don't worry someday I promise you will feel at home" And, oh, my God! I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of And, oh, my God! I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of And, oh, my God! I've lost control Of the only thing in life I had a hold of