كلمات Happy Hour

Sitting in the hot seat, I'm gonna burn alive Sweating into my coffee, it's gonna be a long night Sobriety makes me anxious, but so does getting drunk Never been much of an actor, but I've always been a punk Can't win, it's a lose-lose situation Can't swim without you, hesitation What I'm doing to myself, I will never live it down I'm gonna need some help and I don't wanna drown Staring contest with the bar, I don't know why I can't just take myself away All these empty glasses staring at me, laughing in my face How can I atone if I am on my own? I don't have the willpower And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour Haven't been out in ages, no one looks the same I haven't been this courageous for a while, I wanna make a change A moment of weakness and fate intervenes But I'm staying on the wagon, I promised I'd be clean Just once, it's a win-win situation No one can reclaim my elation What I'm doing to my soul, messing with my mind Falling down the rabbit hole and I don't know how to climb Staring contest with the bar, I don't know why I can't just take myself away All these empty glasses staring at me, laughing in my face How can I atone if I am on my own? I don't have the willpower And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour It always went either way I'd have a coke and leave, or drop a pill and drink and stay Never wanna let my demons fully run away I owe 'em a debt that I can't really afford to pay Keep your enemies and let your friends fade away It's a surprise when I rise and live another day I can't go on, keep the show on If I do, I'm gonna lose a fucking colon Or a kidney or a lung I'm just a kid, see, I've just begun I need peace, need solace, need kindness One more beer could leave me to beer blindness Last night was alright, I survived Except the gaps in night that I missed I could've reassessed my passion for life But I can't remember it, 'cause I was pissed Staring contest with the bar, I don't know why I can't just take myself away All these empty glasses staring at me, laughing in my face How can I atone if I am on my own? I don't have the willpower And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour